Lay down your burden, I will carry you;
I will carry you my child, my child.

I'll give you blood if that's what you need to stay alive.

sometimes I wish my adrenaline could kick in 3 weeks before the exams instead of like 3 hours before the paper.

Some nice shots from foto_decadent!
Recession chic = no money spent on clothes, all money going to eating & being prudent. (gasp, never thought the day would come where I'd use the word prudent on myself.)
I'm now thinking in food equivalent terms.

Series of events as follows:
1. See nice shorts online. (Replace shorts with shoes / bag / shirt / dress at will.)
2. Instantly think to self, what can I wear this with ?
3. In the next heartbeat, instantly think instead: xx amount of money can feed me for x week / y month !
4. Gaze longingly at said apparel in said window.
5. In the next 10 minutes, said window will be closed.
6. In the next 2 days, said apparel will be thought about, interspersed with moments of but I really shouldn't buy that... and associated rational thinking.

Will refrain from making a 'such is life' comment, because life is good even though we are in the midst of a Ca tsunami. He is Good, always.

/random: song is chanting ' Don't you worry there's still timeeeeee.' Is this a signal to draw me in front of the TV!
/beams to self.

My soul knows very well

You make Your face to shine on me
And that my soul knows very well
You lift me up, I'm cleansed and free
And that my soul knows very well

When mountains fall, I'll stand
By the power of Your hand
And in Your heart of heart I'll dwell
And that my soul knows very well

Joy and strength each day I find
And that my soul knows very well
Forgiveness, hope, I know is mine
And that my soul knows very well

You're the God of this city.

specially for ninjafriend, because bluetooth failed today.

Lets do some mental winnowing.

1. I could finally stream Bones today (: && in a double episode whammy too.
2. Talking to Caleb is always good stuff (:
3. Worship today in service was, much needed. Thank you Father.
4. I do not exist for you to a) poke fun at b) insult when necessary c) make cutting comments about my friends / image / whatever you deem fit. But its okay, sucking it up in progress.
5. I saw this AWESOME black knit pants at m)phosis (: beams to self. It is very nice, and can feed my meals at NUS for a week. sigh.
6. Sometimes I wonder why can't we progress past meaningless conversation and mindless chatter and ask the questions that really matter ? After church today, we went to eat && walk around. Had a HTHT (heart to heart talk) at MOS burger with Jansen && Siqi. Such are the good times.
7. I find myself becoming more averse to, small talk. Especially when I'm tired.
8. Sent CHARLENE THE BAO THE BESTFRIEND off yesterday! miss her x 10 x 100 already.
9. There has been this INFLUX of Aedes mosquitoes in my room. All bloodsuckers the lot of them. I think they are Aedes Aegypti. Mega sian && fail because I fail miserably in killing them. Hence feet = stung.
10. Tomorrow marks the start of a full day wasted doing visitations. On the brighter side, there are always my friends, Ba Kwa && Prawn Rolls. Not forgetting sidedish friends like, Kueh Bangket && Pineapple Tarts.

Now only if friends could be classified into Friends, Sidedish Friends, and Not Friends. I know you classify your friends, and that is starting to discourage me much more than you know.

Course of action ? Bring it to the Lord, bring everything to the Lord and lay it at His feet and let Him do the work.

Oswald Chambers:

Whenever we experience something difficult in our personal life, we are tempted to blame God. But we are the ones in the wrong, not God. Blaming God is evidence that we are refusing to let go of some disobedience somewhere in our lives. But as soon as we let go, everything becomes as clear as daylight to us. As long as we try to serve two masters, ourselves and God, there will be difficulties combined with doubt and confusion. Our attitude must be one of complete reliance on God. Once we get to that point, there is nothing easier than living the life of a saint. We encounter difficulties when we try to usurp the authority of the Holy Spirit for our own purposes.

God’s mark of approval, whenever you obey Him, is peace. He sends an immeasurable, deep peace; not a natural peace, "as the world gives," but the peace of Jesus. Whenever peace does not come, wait until it does, or seek to find out why it is not coming. If you are acting on your own impulse, or out of a sense of the heroic, to be seen by others, the peace of Jesus will not exhibit itself. This shows no unity with God or confidence in Him. The spirit of simplicity, clarity, and unity is born through the Holy Spirit, not through your decisions. God counters our self-willed decisions with an appeal for simplicity and unity.

My questions arise whenever I cease to obey. When I do obey God, problems come, not between me and God, but as a means to keep my mind examining with amazement the revealed truth of God. But any problem that comes between God and myself is the result of disobedience. Any problem that comes while I obey God (and there will be many), increases my overjoyed delight, because I know that my Father knows and cares, and I can watch and anticipate how He will unravel my problems.

Blessed be.

I am reminded, again of the length, breadth and depth of Your forgiveness and love for me.
And I am humbled, humbled beyond words and beyond cognitive thought.
I was reminded, of so many things during this camp.
That the praying and seeking comes before the doing. And the loving and caring comes before the programs. That I have to be intentional about investing in relationships, I have to love.
I was reminded about how I have forgotten how to Love, and how I have forgotten how to care. And that I ask for Your & all of your forgiveness where I have erred, and not loved.
I am reminded how it is to Give, and how much it is that we receive in return. That much joy is experienced in the giving, and in the receiving. And of new wells, and treasures in jars of clay.
I am reminded that Your promise is sure, that my soul is secured, that Your love endures always. And that as surely as You give life to the earth, that You alone O God, can sustain me.
I am reminded that I am the salt and the light in the world. And of the unsaltiness, and dullness that have permeated my life. Yet, You give me hope, and steady my footsteps. So I ask that You burn away the chaff, and consume the dross and make me as pure gold.
I am reminded of the passion, the fire I once caught, that has reduced to a small ember, and I ask that You stoke the flame again.
I am reminded that I have been ashamed, that I have regretted. I thank You for making me into a new creation.
So let the redeemed of the Lord say so. Let them rise up. Let them hear the Lord's call and herald in His glory. I only want to be where You are, so show me. Lord, help me to integrate 2 halves into 1 whole. Help me even as I struggle, to rest in You, to know You in your power and your suffering, to be with You in the quiet, to be made whole and healed, to be the salt and the light for You.