Paper Heart. AA-AR.

a year has passed, the seasons go.

Irrational Fear 2

That my pet spider, who I named Christian, will escape the tangles of its self made web, emerge from its scotchtaped home, and crawl on my flowerpod bed at night, rendering me helpless to its venom.

Ruffles and awesomeness.

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Twilight, among other things.

So then because I couldn't find anyone to go watch Twilight with me, I caught it by myself :)
And then, mmm I multitasked during the movie because it was so boring :(

This is why I much prefer books over movies, most of the time. Unless the casting / director / soundtrack / adaptation is really good, books >>> movies x 1000000.

And then, the only thing the movie did for me was, incite a desire to read all 4 books again! OH HELP ME NOW.

I think my love for Jawetz shall, and must triumph. Failing which, the results will be disasterousssssssss.

And my heart found a home again.

Meet my christmas tree at home, without ornaments put on it yet. I really really love my christmas tree cos its super oldschool and nice. And it flakes silver tree like stalk leaves. ANYWAY the point is that yesterday we went christmas shopping! :)
We are trying to navigate our way from Outram Park MRT to Tan Boon Liat Towers. Twas a ardous journey, plus it started to drizzle along the way.

on finding the TBL towers, which was supposedly near some duck rice place:
TGN: "Where is that Duck Rice place you were talking about?"
(May Anne points to a bare patch of grass where the temporary food centre was) "There."
TGN:"Oh. So the ducks ate the weed and it became duckweed ahurhur"

We opened the doors to SKS (which incidentally has a No Solicting sign on it. Then I pointed it out to TGN, who was holding the door for me & who didn't see it & thought I was purposely making him hold the door longer & who went ' HURRY UP LAH. Think I hold door for you free one ah?' Kids these days.)
And then we saw this book, to which we cracked some joke that involved Abby and learning how to positively love the negative abby-s in your life. MMM.
So, we finally finished, with Siqi deciding on her first love Tozer book, Jansen spending 80 dollars of his 200 dollars budget, May Anne buying 2 books (and squealing when she met Lydia and her very cute brother. I just realised yesterday who James really is, omg.) and me with my books + cards.

It is good, it is good.
Spot the flash of red in the background, I'm not sure who it was, but someone thought it was KFC. Fact: it was actually Avis: car rental. :)
Right around this time Siqi and I decided to march along the road towards Great World City. And then Jansen joined in. And it was good, it was good. And I shall not upload said video :)
Then we decided we needed to sit down, so we brought the little kids to Toastbox. And ate very nice toast but the highlight was when TGN pointed to the towering mass of butter and said: 'How come here got ice-cream?'
HMMM.

And so we galloped down the slope to the bus stop after buying stuff at M&S, and headed to Jansen's house for BBQ.
We had the best chicken wings EVER. I am still drooling at the thought of the honey chicken wings. And hence I will have to run to shed the calories, especially in the light of the parties that are coming up! (insert random anxious thought about impending exams and lack of time to study. okay done.)
And then we invented the action of the year. Seriously, it is that funny. :)
And then we had the soundbite of the year, I think it emerged from TGN's lips.
And then we met Abby's and Charbao's version 1.3, who is just too cute. And her steth's blue!

I think I shall write my cards now, and send them out. Then err, try to study and go and run.
Man, I can't wait for the Ham and Turkey and Spaghetti later. :)

Oswald Chambers:

Whenever we experience something difficult in our personal life, we are tempted to blame God. But we are the ones in the wrong, not God. Blaming God is evidence that we are refusing to let go of some disobedience somewhere in our lives. But as soon as we let go, everything becomes as clear as daylight to us. As long as we try to serve two masters, ourselves and God, there will be difficulties combined with doubt and confusion. Our attitude must be one of complete reliance on God. Once we get to that point, there is nothing easier than living the life of a saint. We encounter difficulties when we try to usurp the authority of the Holy Spirit for our own purposes.

God’s mark of approval, whenever you obey Him, is peace. He sends an immeasurable, deep peace; not a natural peace, "as the world gives," but the peace of Jesus. Whenever peace does not come, wait until it does, or seek to find out why it is not coming. If you are acting on your own impulse, or out of a sense of the heroic, to be seen by others, the peace of Jesus will not exhibit itself. This shows no unity with God or confidence in Him. The spirit of simplicity, clarity, and unity is born through the Holy Spirit, not through your decisions. God counters our self-willed decisions with an appeal for simplicity and unity.

My questions arise whenever I cease to obey. When I do obey God, problems come, not between me and God, but as a means to keep my mind examining with amazement the revealed truth of God. But any problem that comes between God and myself is the result of disobedience. Any problem that comes while I obey God (and there will be many), increases my overjoyed delight, because I know that my Father knows and cares, and I can watch and anticipate how He will unravel my problems.

Irrational Fear 1

1. That a flying beetle flying around in my room will land on my head and nestle in my hair.



&& one of my favourite models, Coco Rocha has a blog !! and here's one of her videos with Behati.
THIS IS JUST TOO CUTE :D esp at 6-ish minutes. seriously :)

A clean room, with Robbins on the desk.

My daddy showed me pictures of cakes, from Bakerzin. Hence, I am craving for Chocolate Amer (sp?)

Sometimes, I feel a need to scramble, to cover all bases, expecting myself to be just who every one else wants me to be. It's time to slow down, to regroup, to be intentional, and not just love in a frivolous manner. 

got salt?

its been great with you guys :) 

Love, me. 

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credits

Blessed be.

I am reminded, again of the length, breadth and depth of Your forgiveness and love for me.
And I am humbled, humbled beyond words and beyond cognitive thought.
I was reminded, of so many things during this camp.
That the praying and seeking comes before the doing. And the loving and caring comes before the programs. That I have to be intentional about investing in relationships, I have to love.
I was reminded about how I have forgotten how to Love, and how I have forgotten how to care. And that I ask for Your & all of your forgiveness where I have erred, and not loved.
I am reminded how it is to Give, and how much it is that we receive in return. That much joy is experienced in the giving, and in the receiving. And of new wells, and treasures in jars of clay.
I am reminded that Your promise is sure, that my soul is secured, that Your love endures always. And that as surely as You give life to the earth, that You alone O God, can sustain me.
I am reminded that I am the salt and the light in the world. And of the unsaltiness, and dullness that have permeated my life. Yet, You give me hope, and steady my footsteps. So I ask that You burn away the chaff, and consume the dross and make me as pure gold.
I am reminded of the passion, the fire I once caught, that has reduced to a small ember, and I ask that You stoke the flame again.
I am reminded that I have been ashamed, that I have regretted. I thank You for making me into a new creation.
So let the redeemed of the Lord say so. Let them rise up. Let them hear the Lord's call and herald in His glory. I only want to be where You are, so show me. Lord, help me to integrate 2 halves into 1 whole. Help me even as I struggle, to rest in You, to know You in your power and your suffering, to be with You in the quiet, to be made whole and healed, to be the salt and the light for You.

Yen- Supernova

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On a book rampage

After sunday lunch at Il Piccolo, we trooped to Bedok Community Library; where I swooped on 7 books. 

2 Nora Roberts, 1 Terry Pratchett, 1 Barbara Bradford, 1 Tami Hoag, 2 Michael Cox. 

Congratulations to me, nicely done.

Siqi's Russian Concubine is my the car's boot because she didn't want it to surface at her swimwear party. 

This week's the 2nd week of the December holidays, and with my days filling up fast, it only means 1 thing: time to study!

I will be at got salt? camp tomorrow through saturday. :)

Ports 1961 S/S 07

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Sophie's 21st

[edit] I realised that the photos are too big to load properly here, they get cut off!

And I'm too lazy to resize them :/

Anyway, for those who want to see an oasis of green, here they are! 

Guns a blazing and all.

Love, love, love Infernal Affairs. 

HSM 3 trailer: Rhino!

Till we lose control, system overload.

1. gothere.sg is my current favourite website.

2. I cannot find proper drop crotch pants.

3. I think sometimes you don't think about the words that are coming our of your mouth, and how they sound. Or maybe you do think about the words, about what you are saying, but you just don't care. I'm starting to find you more and more repelling. 

4. Fringe shoes came today! 

5. I love his look :)

6. Love Lockdown.

7. It's exactly 1 month to exams. 

8. It's time to start christmas present shopping, except I'm feeling very lazy.

9. I think, wait I know that age is not a good indicator for maturity. 

10. Parents are coming back next week! Means, no more non existent breakfasts, sloppy lunches & fast food dinners. HH.

Live your life: Because other girls don't eat like we do.

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1+2+3= We found the oddest shaped onion ring. And then I ate it. 
4. Remnants of snack part 1.
5. HEN HAO (HH).

5 Dec 08:
1. Jasmine & I were so hungry, so we went to KFC to eat a snack first. Where was Siqi? Running and picking up invoices :)
2. Beloved tofu cabbage soup with depleted anchovies. 
3. Dessert #1: Mango pudding + pomelo + sago. The pomelo was quickly dug out of the ice and consumed by us. Yum!
4. Dessert part 2: Towering mass of mango, ice, condensed milk and mango ice cream. 
5. Our towering mass of mango dessert crumbled under, some external force called Jasmine's Hand.
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7. I cannot get over a) how LONG Siqi's hand looks and b) how HAPPY Jasmine looks. 
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11. We finished at around 9 plus, with much delirium no less.