Chasing A Ghost Of A Good Thing.

2009-08-08T13:51:00.000+08:00

moved to theonlyfault.tumblr.com

wrapped in brown towels, rolling around on comforter covered beds;

2009-08-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

It meant to me, a place to hide away from the storm, if just for a little while so thanks for today.

photo via here.

Algorithms.

2009-08-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

If it remained unclear
between the two of us,
which one would be the one
to break the other's heart

oh oh!

2009-07-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

via here

Hotwheels leading the way;

2009-07-27T21:40:00.001+08:00

On barking dogs next block:
Jonathan Kum: stop barking stupid dog.

You like this.

Charis Kum
YEAH YOU ARE KORRECT. omg almost threw daggers at the 3 dogs when the owner finally came back.
jon: look at what my hydra dropped!

Jonathan Kum
where do you get daggers? inject them with milo kosong gao.
lololol no blueprints. check out my awesome trap! :D

"Inject them with MILO KOSONG GAO."

HAHAHA WHAT.

there is no maybe.

2009-07-27T20:38:00.003+08:00

"One of the cruelest things you can do to another person is to pretend that you care about them more than you actually do."

via here

ps: channel 5 is finally showing the mentalist, so I get to see Simon Baker's awesome smile in proper dimensions. way awesome!

in other words: think happy thoughts, holidays are coming soon.

Shades of grey.

2009-07-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

quote via creampuff.

i've been there and back;

2009-07-26T21:16:00.001+08:00

1. On clothes from Marks & Spencer.

Sophie:

I'm in a relationship with it.

It's made of Indian Silk, that's why it costs $50 bucks.

And it has a touch me sticker on it.

And its oh so soft.

2. On bags from online shops.
Siqi:
(leans over 2 people)
Eh what is the address of that online shop where this bag came from?
(points to bag)
Oh it's okay i remembered already.
(later on during lunch)
Eh yesterday I bought a bag! It was 50% off from the Island Shop.

3. On shoes from cheap places.
Charlene:
(ages ago)
Eh I need to buy shoes. All my shoes aren't pretty.
(today)
Eh I can't buy shoes anymore, I'm broke.

Nothing is harder than it seems.

2009-07-26T15:01:00.000+08:00

Bonnie and Clyde.

2009-07-25T11:36:00.001+08:00

because we are bestfriends right;

2009-07-22T20:24:00.001+08:00

late night talks;

2009-07-20T12:11:00.001+08:00

Why Do You Let Me Stay Here-She & Him

2009-07-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

the hunger games;

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On Facing Death

2009-07-19T12:59:00.000+08:00

"People imagine that they are not afraid of death when they think of it while they are in good health."

- Marcel Proust.

Trust Me-The Fray

2009-07-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

via rispillo

just like quicksand;

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you don't make commitments you can't keep;

2009-07-18T09:49:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, we were supposed to shop for a friend's birthday present before meeting friends and embarking on what proved to be my downfall for the rest of the night. Anyway the point is that, I saw this PS1 like bag from C&K and am still thinking about it! Okay, it wasn't very PS1 like but the point is that it is grey & navy blue & very pretty & very me.

And also yesterday, I stepped into MPH bookstore while waiting for 2 very late boys and realized it has been a long time since I last picked up a book for leisure and not because of a compulsion to do so. Then I realised that it's been a long time since I did anything for leisure and not because I was compelled to do it; because I had to. I couldn't sleep last night because of the sugar from the souffle, so this morning I went running with all the sugar in my system. It's time to start doing things that I want, isn't it?

&& oh Sonia, we need to work on our mutual telepathy. The only words we managed to say in sync yesterday was: ptosis and exopthalmos. Tragik.

Why-Secondhand Serenade

2009-07-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

Georgia On My Mind-Ray Charles

2009-07-16T15:15:00.000+08:00

Teardrops On My Guitar-Taylor Swift

2009-07-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

The Reason Why-Rachael Yamagata

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Yellow (Coldplay cover)-Petra Haden and Bill Frisell

2009-07-13T17:53:00.004+08:00

syrinx:

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Syrinx was one of those versatile virgins of Arcadia, who, on being pursued by Pan beside the river Ladon, turned herself into a reed, from which Pan made his pipes, so giving her name to various tubular structures, eg syriges, and syrinxes, which are tubular or slit-like cavities in or close to the central canal of the cervical cord. They may extend up or down.

-Oxford Handbook of Clinical Medicine (My Best Friend)

you have an aura

2009-07-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

"I want people to feel an immediate happiness and cheerfulness when they are around me. To make a difference in someone's life. I want to make an impression in someone's life, so that even though I may be delicate and fragile, my footprints are permanent within the hearts of the ones I've touched."

via creampuff, again.

thoughts running through my head now:

2009-07-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

"I like the blue colour, its very... bright."
"Is it too bright?"
"Well, its hospital appropriate."
"But it has weird frills at the bottom, makes my butt look big."
"Frills = cute!"
"Frills = fat."

what does it take to find a lost love?

2009-07-10T20:23:00.003+08:00

Today my friend turned 90 years old. The hospital staff sang him a birthday song when we were having tutorial. He told me he wanted to hit 100 years old, said that with a grin and hope in his voice. He is a cute old man, tells me about his education, his job, his mee goreng. He says he likes to cook his own food, that he puts 6 onions, 60 cents toufu and a little yellow mee and he cooks it by himself. That the kind they sell outside isn't nice, "they give so little towgay".

Today I said goodbye && take care to another friend who went home. He defaulted treatment for his thyroid problem for many years, because he didn't have the money to pay for medication. He said he didn't know what to do when he goes home, "Singapore is a very hard place ah. People are very unfriendly, and they are selfish." And then he told me firmly: "Don't press people down because when you go, no one will come and send you off".
Don't press people down.

Today I said a cheery good morning to this man who wanders the hallways every morning. The hallways in AH are a breezy, open place to be and today he was looking out one of the colonial style windows, gazing at the tress outside.
He has lung cancer.
I try to greet him happily every morning because sometimes that's the best we can do, to be cheerful for them.

This week has been busy but fulfilling.

Drinking chamomile tea and:

2009-07-10T20:18:00.004+08:00

"Do you know what happens when you hurt people? When you hurt people, they begin to love you less. That's what careless words do. They make people love you a little less."
- The God Of Small Things.

via creampuff

Maybe if you didn't say those things, I'd love you a whole lot more.

appearances deceive.

2009-07-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

2 minutes into the conversation, his eyes filled with tears.
"Wo huo zai shi jie shang hen tong ku, mei you ban fa le."

Later my friend asked, "why did you talk to him?".
"Sometimes the best thing we can do is to listen."

this is how i'm feeling right now:

2009-07-05T16:24:00.005+08:00

like there's no way forward, and definitely none back.

fix your shattered bones.

2009-07-01T21:41:00.001+08:00

if you only had one more day to live, what would you do?

suppose it were true.

2009-06-28T16:28:00.004+08:00

its like having a stone in your heart, and not being able to roll it away.

cherry cherry bon bon.

2009-06-28T16:08:00.005+08:00

#1
"So what do I do?"
"Just distance yourself."
"I've tried that already."
"Was it obvious?"
"Yes, it was."

#2
"She was just being friendly (pause) and I really didn't know what was going on."
"You have denial issues."
"But she was just being friendly!"

#3
"Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again..."
"Don't make me change my mind"
"I won't waste another day, I swear its true"
"Because a girl like you is impossible to find."
"You're impossible to find."

#4
"Cherry cherry bon bon!"
"?!!"

#5
"Wait I knew that."

#6
"I'm Yours makes me squirm in my skin."
(turns up volume)

#7
"I'm alert as an alligator."

#8
"Chocolate cake vs Transformers?"
"Chocolate cake."
"?!?!?"

something so contrived.

2009-06-26T22:02:00.001+08:00

If you talk to me to make yourself feel better, then don't bother.

i'm giving you a break from me

2009-06-24T20:37:00.003+08:00

Posting is set to resume soon, and among other things I think I have the propensity to say the stupidest things.

/hides face.

Alexandra Hospital is where I'm at now, and they have weird card inserts on their tables; things like TLC and spoonfuls of sugar that are supposed to make you eat healthier. Watch out because by the end of this 9 weeks, I'll have no more fat. I'll be like chicken breast meat, a lean and strong machine.

Today we camped around our kind and funny tutor in Ward 2, and learnt things that we should have been taught earlier. Funny how teaching sometimes goes backwards.

Today we got advice from 2 old men, on marriage (don't marry young, enjoy life first) and taking care of kids (the wife is the good guy, the husband has to be the bad guy). I guess, it's always good to start planning (??).

2009-04-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

I like something that's easy and comfortable, smooth and fluffy like cotton candy.

your protector's coming home.

2009-04-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

My dire affliction, I'll attribute to you

2009-04-23T22:28:00.005+08:00

It's clear you're nothing special, you're just a skeleton key.
Today, I have rediscovered the joys of songs that don't mean much and just sound nice. A bit like people sometimes, too.

The past week (if you must):
1. Fluffy hair.
2. Soyabean milk.
3. Waffles.
4. 18 chefs, KFC. Prospectively: laksa and sushi.
5. Feeling inadequate, incompetent and slack; basically PP (phytoplankton) like.
6. Suddenly having energy to go run today in CGH's gym.
7. Having people exclaim HUH YOU'RE GOING RUNNING to the above point.
8. Why is it that it is not possible to be a contradiction?
9. Currently playing err, Restaurant City. HAHAHA.
10. And worrying about dresscode and cui-ness to Gareth Pugh.
11. Walking out into wrong places, and encountering stunned nurses.
12. Having to research about sunbears and bile.
13. Seeing really really cute old people (:
14. Learning bits of hokkien, like some lo kun thing.
15. Being tempted to replace thing with some other word that I hear frequently from Sonia & my tutor. No, it doesn't start with F and yes it starts with S.
16. Tomorrow is the weekend, I thought we never live to see it, but I exaggerate.
17. Nail polish is destructible, even the clear ones. Yes, you can call me superficial now, go on.
18. I wish to lose weight so I can walk faster. My legs are the same length as Keith's but I can't walk as fast, it must be the weight.
19. I really like the lyrics of this song! SKELETON KEY LA, THEN.
20. My weekends are really busy.

No parachutes and safety nets here.

2009-04-21T19:42:00.003+08:00

Don't expect things that I can't and won't give.
Do, however, try to grow eyes in the back of your head. The present ones aren't working, because they don't detect changes.

Britain's Got Talent: Susan Boyle

2009-04-17T20:49:00.001+08:00

This is fully awesome.

I dreamed a dream lyrics:
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

My Sister's Keeper

2009-04-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for this to hit the screen in June.

The Good, The Bad and The Tasty part I

2009-04-06T22:24:00.005+08:00

The Good:
1. H&M + Uniqlo=best haul ever. I finally got my bomber jacket + studded belt + clinical shoes + black flats. All in black, not sure why.
2. Small tucked away timsum houses with the best congee ever for breakfast. Multiply by 3 = breakfast everyday.
3. Disneyland! My brother dragged me along to Space Mountain :/ && then when it rolled me around in the rollercoaster dark thing he laughed at me! But it was still quite fun.

The Bad:
4. The walking is horrendous. I think I grew an extra set of muscles. And everyone walks very fast, and talks very loud.
5. The turnover at restaurants is fast x 100 = eat very fast without talking.
6. Ladies market. The upside of this walk into Ladies Market was the best XLB ever eaten. (:

The Tasty:
7. Lin Heung Tea House on the second day for breakfast. The whole place was packed, tea was everywhere and old people were too, sipping their tea (which was obscenely thick btw) and reading newspapers. Best fish thing and paus. /drool.
8. Milk teaaaaa at Lan Fong Yuen. /slurp.
9. Steamed carrot cake at Wai Kee Congeeeeeee. Super yum!
10. Okay so mmm on the third day when we were in Central, and hungry from post H&M shopping we ate 5 lunches. You know, the mini kind or so we like to think.
It went like this:
Zi Char @ some roadside stall / Wanton Mee / Claypot Rice (AWESOME) / Pork chop buns + milk tea / Egg tarts.

Photos when I get my hands on them!

/the title should read THE TASTY because I've never felt so pleased with the food. HOHOHO.

2009-04-01T19:45:00.001+08:00

off to hongkong, be back on sunday.

2009-03-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

Lay down your burden, I will carry you;
I will carry you my child, my child.

talking in code.

2009-03-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

Take this quiz to find out if u are girly or not! :D
below 40 = Not Girly
above 40 = Girlie
above 55 = Paris Hilton

[X] My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted.
[ ] During the summer pretty much the only shoes I wear are flip flops.
[X] My favorite toy as a child were barbies. (and I loved to dress them up and down.)
[ ] My favorite color is pink or purple.
[ ] I took dance.
[X] I love skirts/shorts.
[X] Shops at the mall.
[ ] Tight jeans are the only jeans Ill wear.
[X} I love chocolate. (DARK chocolate. oozing out of marshmellows.)

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[X] I straighten my hair.
[X] I have at least 8 facebook pictures.
[X] I usually go shopping once a week. (disclaimer: ONLINE ONLINE EVERYDAY.)
[X] I love to hang out with friends.
[X] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace.
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[X ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes. (HAHAHA. is not that much.)
[X] I watch(ed) either The OC, Laguna Beach OR Desperate Housewives.
[ ] I change my profile weekly.
[X] I have worn a shower cap.

TOTAL SO FAR: 13

[X] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic.
[X] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[ ] I wear mascara everyday.
[X] I've been or am on a diet.
[ ] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] Tattoos are Gross.
[X] I have gotten my nails done.
[X] I own over 10 purses. (at last count my cupboard is bursting.)
[ ] MuchMusic is my one of my favorite channels.

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ ] I like to talk about boys.
[] I love to have other people do my hair.
[X] I like to give and receive hugs from all my friends.
[X] I hate bugs.
[ ] Carnivals are so fun!
[ ] Summer is THE best season.
[ ] My swimsuit has 2 pieces.
[ ] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor.
[X] Musicians are hot.
[ ] You write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful and I'm all yours.

TOTAL SO FAR: 21

[X] I'm self-conscious.
[] I cry often.
[ ] My room smells like vanilla.
[] My dishes get washed more then once a week.
[ ] I don't do sports
[ ] I HATE to run.
[ ] I squeal when I am surprised.
[X] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[X] Has seen and read Twilight series.
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute.

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[ ] I dance a lot.
[] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house.
[] My hair is important
[X] I love to get dressed up.
[ ] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[ ] I'd love to have a photo shoot of myself.
[X] The price on clothes hardly matters. (depends on cost per wear, and potential mileage.)
[ ] I apply lipgloss 50 times a day.
[X] I wish I were a model. (cos of the height + you're paid to walk runways + you get to go to PARIS + MILAN + NY AMG.)

TOTAL SO FAR: 26

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton.
[ ] I wanted or have been something that was slutty on Halloween.
[ ] R&B is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar.
[ ] Guys with Mohawks are GROSS!
[ ] Horses are beautiful.
[ ] I never pay attention in school.
[X ] Puppies are adorable.

TOTAL SO FAR: 27

[X ] I speak IM.
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] White is better than black.
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black.
[X] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes. (i'm thinking of selling some away oh well.)
[] I HATE THE GRUNGE LOOK OF A BEARD.
[] I love flowers.

TOTAL SO FAR: 31

[X] I love to Doodle.
[ ] I love Celine Dion.
[ ] My baths are 2 hours long.
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[X] I like kids.
[] Diet drinks are the best.
[ ] I have been a vegetarian.
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonald's.

TOTAL SO FAR: 33

[X] I check my facebook everyday.
[X] I have a lot of jewelry.
[ ] Only have gold jewelry.
[ ] My screen name[s] has x's in them.
[ ] Either one of my msn names has/had <3/♥'s in them.
[] I would never want to be the opposite sex.
[X] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed. (they are all piled up at one corner.)

TOTAL: 36

HAHAHA CLOSE ENOUGH. OKAY BYE.

/slinks back into bacteria induced revelry.

you gotta let me know.

2009-03-27T22:17:00.004+08:00

There are some songs that you love because of the lyrics, and then there are those that you play over and over again because of the music; this is one of them.

Great discovery on a mundane friday (:

Irrational Fear 3

2009-03-23T15:01:00.002+08:00

That this mutant mosquito making its mutant mad rounds around my thigh/body/heat emitting computer will suck all my blood out, and leave me a lifeless shell of a corpse.

The upcoming finals could do that too, huh.

In other news, I am surviving on the sheer power generated by Goldkiri Coffee (what a name!) and God.

Tire Swing - Kimya Dawson

2009-03-22T21:09:00.001+08:00

Gave me a push and he started singing
I sang along while I was swinging
The sound of our voices made us forget everything
That had ever hurt our feelings

What I Am Doing:

2009-03-18T11:13:00.006+08:00

1. Studying.
2. Running at least twice a week. Oddly enough I can run for a longer distance in the gym then in the 'real world' if you get what I mean. Sadly enough, there is no gym nearby.
3. Snacking between meals. Potato chips! Chocolate! Yoghurt! Repeat!
4. Playing FB games. HEHEHE.
5. Watching TV shows + one brokeback mountain (which is possibly the saddest romantic movie ever.)
6. Dazed Digital Playlists are very good to study to, esp. the Feb one.
7. Looking at awesome stud DIYs online, and wanting to try, and knowing that I'll probably poke holes in my fingers.
8. Tracking my items from everywhere. And tracking my brother's Rhino plush toy thingy. It's very cute.
9. Reading Huffington Post.
10. Scrambling around in distress because Paul just sent an email to say that a review of the exam questions is underway. NEUROSCIENCE HOW.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

2009-03-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
- "Eloisa to Abelar"- Alexander Pope.

It's raining, raining. Oh baby it's raining, raining.

2009-03-05T23:36:00.006+08:00

While reading Watchmen, I've been bloghopping/shopping and looking at Split Cameras.

AGAIN.

(: life is good & I love the rainnnnn.

ps: anyone wants to go for rachael yamagata's concert! (: /looks at sonia hopefully.

pps: It distresses me greatly when I find that I've nothing to wear for a wedding. AMG in my subconscious I've secretly been hand-wringing over what to wear on saturday.

ppps: I want my online stuff to come nowwwwww.

the curtain was drawn, left you sleeping so sound.

2009-02-28T21:51:00.003+08:00

Watching 4 intense movies over 2 days screws with your head, and renders you incapable of studying for +/- 1 day.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons

2009-02-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

It's not about how well you play it, it's about how you feel about playing it.

when did your heart go missing?

2009-02-24T22:36:00.003+08:00

1. I think that Jen & John looked very naiice together at the Oscars. And that Ange looked gaunt in her all black ensemble.
2. I literally jumped for joy when Slumdog won many many.
3. And hence I conclude that the past few days have been a monumental waste of time trying to cram COFM.
4. I think when things change, you change and now I don't know you anymore.
5. I'm so sick of being stifled by the very things I chose to love and study.
6. When did your heart go missing?
7. How come slashed jeans and spikes and studs and gleaming metal things are appearing everywhere?
8. And at NYFW too. See Nathan Jensen. Amg.
9. While bloghopping I saw this super cute violinist and hyperventilated on my couch.
10. Seriously, too too cute. Way too cute.
11. Tomorrow the CAs start, and I'm way too jaded to care. Unfort, the heart thinks otherwise. It is currently thumping along happily in my thoracic cavity.
12. On a happier note, my happy piece of plastic camera should be hopping by my room to say HI. I shall welcome it with open arms (along with a paperbag skirt), seeing how it is a small piece of happiness in an increasingly dark world. Okay too melodramatic.
13. Rant over. Shall join my brother in his quest to hunt for mice, and a Rhino plush toy. How excite.

Ice-cream soda, cherry on the top please.

2009-02-21T11:11:00.006+08:00

Lately the days have blended into nights with a huge overdose of parasites in between.
So that leaves me with finding my own cherry on the top; this editorial above.

More here
Wanted to post it in full, but blogger is not cooperating (much like my brain capacity).

Anyways, the weekend is here. The exams draw near. And all I want to do is watch Ip Man.

I promise this whining of sorts will be out of the (slightly dusty) window in no time when the CAs roll over and play dead.
And revive themselves in the form of the PROS.

Oh goody me.

Strong! Wild! Powerful! Savage! Beast!

2009-02-19T09:40:00.001+08:00

Here we come, oh ye exams.

41571

2009-02-17T22:58:00.003+08:00

Tonight a part of me died when I looked at the names of the fungi and mycoses.

And that same part self-revived after watching Jason Bourne
a) Walk out of 2 car crashes alive
b) Crush a guy to death in a bathroom, by the toilet
c) Wriggle in the water after 2 minutes of floating stationary, and swim to safety.
d) Jump on Moroccan roofs, which are all flat and cool btw and collect clothes along the way to avoid glass splinters in between jumps.

I hence declare that if I have the same (or 99.9%) DNA as him, I will be able to conquer Fungi, Parasites and all the nasty drugs.
/bloopbloopbloop.

a clock is ticking, but its hidden far away.

2009-02-14T21:14:00.005+08:00

TRACkers inaug 09!
Medball 08, Flash and me!
sports day 07!
sophie's 21st @ hortparkkkkk.
at the airporttttt. i remember cool black jacket with silver zippers. lovelove.
post present triumphal return to home!
changi beach date + wedding photos spot!
watchnight watchnight!
coffee club at siglap; muddy mudpie and dubious boys talk.
in the greenlovecar, being silly. (:
Shokudo! For Jingyu + poohbear polaroids.
Clarke Quay; when we were young.
on the bus to malaysia ! (: YMLC 08.
eh, one of many occasions when the camera was out, and we went crazyclicking. lovelove.

happy friendship day beloved friends (:

Chuck Season 2

2009-02-12T20:38:00.001+08:00

Perhaps I've overstated the nature of our relationship.

...

I've been spamming Chuck S2 the whole of today, so dead.

drilling, drilling all day long.

2009-02-12T11:04:00.002+08:00

my neighbours across the carpark have taken it upon themselves to renovate their house.

you always know the best way to get to me, I hate that this has spoilt my whole day.

bollywood dances in a train station...

2009-02-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

have never looked so good and nifty.
slumdog millionaire, very naiice. (: (:

you can take the front seat, just need you to trust me.

2009-02-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

HAHA i found a better distraction.
Very very good.

(: (:

Sorta the last day of school today! Huzzah!

/feels fat now due to Thaiexpress & Coffeeclub lunch.
/hopes to run later.

i just thought this was very cute.

2009-02-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

Tavi says: mythz

Waiting for a response.

2009-02-08T22:21:00.008+08:00

#1: I love history, weirdly enough.
Like Greek mythology or Romance of the Three Kingdoms or even Irish folklore, I'll slurp it all up like good soup.
(I just spent like 45 minutes clicking here and there on Hercules and his exploits on WIKI. Then after that it went on to Jason and the Argonauts, and err Theseus and the Minotaur. You get my drift.)
On the other end of the spectrum, I do not find history of countries/nation states to be of any interest. The French Revolution did interest me because I read this book during that period that had some swapping person exploit carried out, and I thought to my 10 year old self, so cool.

#2: I love to read, rather voraciously indeed.
My reading appetite rivals my eating appetite, which says something. By read, I must qualify and say: absolutely no biographies or autobiographies or downfall of Russia etc etc kind, i.e. no non-fiction.
I used to love going to the Tampines Library when I was in primary school to sit and read by myself. Especially about Greek Mythology, and oh, there was the occasional Chinese book.
I'll take reading over watching a bad movie. Even if its reading a bad book, because thumbing through pages is very relaxing for me. Especially so if these pages happen to be new pages.
/grins to self.

#3: I love my iTunes library.
I refuse to listen to other people's iPods/iTouches/iPhones because they don't have the playlists that I like. And playlists are very important, because I don't listen to anything else in my iPod Classic. Mostly, its either the lonely hearts beat the same or alternate/parallel playlists.

#4: I have a set order in my FireFox routine.
This is how it goes:
- LJ friends page >> LJ friends page editorials >> LJ friends page friends
- Google reader (very important)
- Facebook
- Hotmail / Entourage if Hotmail doesn't work.
I must finish all four of these things before I can start shopping online / looking at other stuff. Which explains why I have not much time left on my hands after that.

#5: I love to eat.
Or I guess you could say I'm greedy, whatever works for you.
I just, love food! I think its great (:
Unfortunately, this spells bad things for areas of the body like:
- the thighs
- the tummy
- the butt
- the arms
and everywhere else that hasn't received a workout in like, 4 months.

#6: When I shop, the music that the shop plays, the way that the shop smells influences my buying decisions.
If the shop (looks at F21 at Vivo) plays really bad techno music, I will be like 'I need to get out of this place ASAP'.
If the shop has a really bad layout / consumer traffic flow, even if I really want to get something from the shop, I'll give it a miss, because I'm not the type of girl that squeezes with others to dig through, err stacks of plaid clothes for my size. I rather err, obssess over it online and decide.

#7: However, #6 doesn't hold water when I go thrifting. Because thrifting is special, and I feel special when I've got something I can wear for like $3.

#8: I have never found anything to buy at FEP / Bugis Village & have never bought anything from these 2 places. Just. Can't. Find. Even. Though. I. Want. To.

#9: I have poor psychomotor skills. Mostly this applies itself in situations like:
- trying to catch house keys thrown by Male Members in the Household. (my mom will just hand them to me)
- kill mosquitoes by sheer force exerted by both my hands. (end up slapping thin air.)

#10: When I am really earnest about studying, my couch and sidekick brown cupboard will get cleared of things on it, wiped down with a cloth and be shiny new happy clean. Then I can study. I did this yesterday, and now it is filled with one bag, and multiple clothing items. /fail

#11: When people are buying something from the same shop, and when I too, want to get something, I am more more moar moar tempted to get the item I want, than if no one were to get anything. This has been the de facto situation now, as opposed to my impulsive buying sprees a few years back. Not seeing the good this change has done, because the Paperchase outing today resulted in a happy me, and a sad bank account.

#12: I watch shows mainly for character development.
I want to follow where the character goes, and where I can too.
Explains why I watch Bones (for Booth & Brennan), Chuck (for Chuck & Sarah), Grey's (initially for Derek & Meredith, then for Izzie & Alex, which came like 3 seasons too late, now for Christina & Major Hunt. Also, Bailey!), Private Practice (for Addison, and associate cute guys).
And also why, I like SATC and not GG.

#13:Hard(er) to see under the exterior of frivolous, but yes, I'm not a girly girl. By girly girl I mean: more pragmatic than romantic... think in the same vein.

#14: I value style more than substance it seems. This only applies to: handphones and soccer teams.

#15: When something is going badly, I tend to ignore it in the hopes that it'll resuscitate itself and be better again. (Normally this does not happen), so am queen of escapism. I venture to say most of my bestfriends fall into my queendom of escapism. /eyes

#16: There are more photos related to fashion on my wall and in my phone. I like to keep nice pictures around me, they make me happy.

#17: I like to define things because it makes me feel safer. But I tend to exist in the gray areas rather than absolutes. Very contradictory, shrugs.
This applies to: compositions, literature texts, relationships etc.

#18: I need to expand space for my bags. They are crying out in oppression in my cupboard, all confined in 2 shelves. I frequently humanise my clothes / shoes / bags / food as you will realise. Sometimes, when I finally get to eat something I've craved for the longest time, I will say 'Hello! Ni Hao!' to the food. My brother frequently pokes fun at me, by saying HELLO NI HAO to his food. I fail to see how this works, but still give him a glare.

#19: (I'm reaching #25. I thought this day would never come.) I like to keep the end in sight, it makes me more focused. On the other hand, I'm learning that you don't need to know everything in the future. You can still not worry, you can still be at peace.

#20: I'm a picture person. I can remember the names of models; on GeoChallenge (FB GAME) I do better with the map parts; I visualize stuff better than say, numbers?

#21: I just put Love Remains The Same on repeat for like 20 times I think. Sometimes, its not just the lyrics of a song, its the cadence too. And the subtle riffs of the guitar and the way it peaks, just nicely.

#22: (I spy a mosquito and instantly turn on the fan.) I am adept with the scissors. You can hand me a piece of paper, and a pair of sharp scissors and I will churn out nicely strung together words with no markings beforehand. As I said, the visualizing thing really helps.

#23: I used to love to read manga! I still read occasionally, but in secondary school I used to read under my table during Higher Chinese lessons.

#24: I have a love-hate relationship with Damien Rice. I find some of his songs nice, but others too whiny.

#25: After hanging out with me for aperiod of time, the people around me, tend to use terms like HH, /beams, or come out with their own like HB (hao ba) and like, /hinthintwinkwinkblinkblinkclueclue. & they tend to abbreviate terms too. Like DGATFE (do good and turn from evil, eh sophie)

Ah this was so exhausting.

Death by white coffee.

2009-02-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

got caffeine in system, cannot sleep.

They have a story to tell.

2009-02-07T16:30:00.004+08:00

#1: ivee's present. very glam one sided masterpiece.
#2: Bestestfriend's present last last Christmas, I think. I remember this came in some sort of brown wrapping paper, brown hut lover !
#3: dangly phase here. very much abandoned in favour of fussfree stud earrings.
#4: Thailand exploits! The red one, was eyeballed at and bought frantically at some night bazaar. The short, purpleredblue one was swooped up in various colours by Siqi, Judy and I. Those were the days of 3+ hours of shopping, and us returning with a great haul (and one time, returning to a person missing!). But the best was not the haul, it was the company & the bargaining adrenaline rush. I could be a professional buyer, I think.
#5: Katong Shopping Centre with the mom after haircuts. Bought at our friend's shop, handmade & crafted from semi precious stones. This marked the transition to buying accessories based on quality, not its price.
#6: The beginning of a friendship marked by food & shopping: the GFF!
#7: Shopping trips with the bestfriends, spread over many many years. To Diva, FEP, Hong Kong(by extension of charlene) etc.

we are the super troupers!

2009-02-07T16:25:00.001+08:00

much love from the confines of my purple room, charis.

this is something else entirely.

2009-02-06T18:22:00.001+08:00

Its cold where I am, and I'm craving for McFlurry and KitKat Chunky.

&& parasites have the worst names ever.

I'll give you blood if that's what you need to stay alive.

2009-02-05T20:34:00.003+08:00

sometimes I wish my adrenaline could kick in 3 weeks before the exams instead of like 3 hours before the paper.

Some nice shots from foto_decadent!
Recession chic = no money spent on clothes, all money going to eating & being prudent. (gasp, never thought the day would come where I'd use the word prudent on myself.)
I'm now thinking in food equivalent terms.

Series of events as follows:
1. See nice shorts online. (Replace shorts with shoes / bag / shirt / dress at will.)
2. Instantly think to self, what can I wear this with ?
3. In the next heartbeat, instantly think instead: xx amount of money can feed me for x week / y month !
4. Gaze longingly at said apparel in said window.
5. In the next 10 minutes, said window will be closed.
6. In the next 2 days, said apparel will be thought about, interspersed with moments of but I really shouldn't buy that... and associated rational thinking.

Will refrain from making a 'such is life' comment, because life is good even though we are in the midst of a Ca tsunami. He is Good, always.

/random: song is chanting ' Don't you worry there's still timeeeeee.' Is this a signal to draw me in front of the TV!
/beams to self.

CBP - my true friend (:

2009-02-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

sikhi says:oh my
sikhi says:how apt you know
sikhi says:i was about to offline msg you
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:HOHO
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:greatttt
sikhi says:like i just opened your window
sikhi says:then suddenly
sikhi says:pop online
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:we are true CBP
sikhi says:superduper
sikhi says:im so surprised
sikhi says:hahhah
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:aye
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:im brushing my teeth now
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:HAHA
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:/heehee
sikhi says:you can see my msn nick ahh
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:?
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:what msn nick
sikhi says:my msn nick is 'this is the way i brush my teeth!'
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:WHAT
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:no srsly im brushing my teeth niw
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:HAHAHA
sikhi says:HAHAHA
sikhi says:OH MY
sikhi says:yes indeed
charis ! fruitcake is naiice. says:SURPRISE X 10 X 100
sikhi says:im pleasantly surprised
sikhi says:like seeing many roses
sikhi says:and the like
sikhi says:WHAT am i talking about

...

lerflerf.

My soul knows very well

2009-02-01T17:49:00.002+08:00

You make Your face to shine on me
And that my soul knows very well
You lift me up, I'm cleansed and free
And that my soul knows very well

When mountains fall, I'll stand
By the power of Your hand
And in Your heart of heart I'll dwell
And that my soul knows very well

Joy and strength each day I find
And that my soul knows very well
Forgiveness, hope, I know is mine
And that my soul knows very well

Note To Self.

2009-02-01T17:48:00.001+08:00

when without inspiration, please look here

Love, me.

You're the God of this city.

2009-02-01T17:43:00.002+08:00

specially for ninjafriend, because bluetooth failed today.

Make you a prouder man.

2009-01-31T15:25:00.002+08:00

If I could have one wish
If I could have some say I'd keep you far from home
I'd roll back both my sleeves
I'd dig under your skin
I'd fix your shattered bones

The Only Fault. Rachael Yamagata.
...

Just watched House Bunny! It is super funny please.
When I've resolved to go for YAM, it starts to rain. Inertia x 10 x 100.

...

Not everything is on my head, not everything.
I wish you would take responsibility for your words.

...

Love Remains The Same.

2009-01-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

Love Remains The Same - Gavin Rossdale
1000 times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But, love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through 7 bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

We - we could have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
As if this could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

This Song + Supernatural Guys = perfect for a friday evening when you're revving up your mugging engine.

Things To Do

2009-01-29T18:48:00.002+08:00

1. Taper glossy leggings. Alternatively, fatten self up so thighs can sufficiently hold leggings up.
2. Clear room of all mosquitoes. Alternatively, call in Male Help; like the Brother who has fast reflexes and the Father who is good with a rubber band.
3. Hunt down some more bakwa. Alternatively, hoard the sole remaining survivor of the BaKwaRace in my room.
4. Hu more rounds of mahjong. Alternatively, get the Mother who can't count the number of bamboos to throw the tile I want.
5. Eat YTF laksa soup. Alternatively, crave for laksa intermittenly through the night and wake up in the morning drooling at the mouth because in my dream, I ate the BestLaksaEver.

House S5E13:Big Baby.

2009-01-28T12:20:00.004+08:00

Why do people get married?

Because they love each other.

Why aren't you married?

I haven't found the person I love yet, because I spend all of my time loving people like you.

Does that mean we can get married?

Love comes in many types, and there's lot of it to go around.

Lets do some mental winnowing.

2009-01-25T23:51:00.002+08:00

1. I could finally stream Bones today (: && in a double episode whammy too.
2. Talking to Caleb is always good stuff (:
3. Worship today in service was, much needed. Thank you Father.
4. I do not exist for you to a) poke fun at b) insult when necessary c) make cutting comments about my friends / image / whatever you deem fit. But its okay, sucking it up in progress.
5. I saw this AWESOME black knit pants at m)phosis (: beams to self. It is very nice, and can feed my meals at NUS for a week. sigh.
6. Sometimes I wonder why can't we progress past meaningless conversation and mindless chatter and ask the questions that really matter ? After church today, we went to eat && walk around. Had a HTHT (heart to heart talk) at MOS burger with Jansen && Siqi. Such are the good times.
7. I find myself becoming more averse to, small talk. Especially when I'm tired.
8. Sent CHARLENE THE BAO THE BESTFRIEND off yesterday! miss her x 10 x 100 already.
9. There has been this INFLUX of Aedes mosquitoes in my room. All bloodsuckers the lot of them. I think they are Aedes Aegypti. Mega sian && fail because I fail miserably in killing them. Hence feet = stung.
10. Tomorrow marks the start of a full day wasted doing visitations. On the brighter side, there are always my friends, Ba Kwa && Prawn Rolls. Not forgetting sidedish friends like, Kueh Bangket && Pineapple Tarts.

Now only if friends could be classified into Friends, Sidedish Friends, and Not Friends. I know you classify your friends, and that is starting to discourage me much more than you know.

Course of action ? Bring it to the Lord, bring everything to the Lord and lay it at His feet and let Him do the work.

Over and Over, again.

2009-01-21T18:16:00.002+08:00

I need to hide within a storm
So have the ending come
And bring the winds that scream
And spill the fog all over town
And hold me in your standstill ground
And I will sink down
And you´ll be washed away
you´ll be washed away

...

best song to study to !

1 more day to a packed weekend, just the way life should be (:

But I'd Came Straight From Work.

2009-01-20T20:35:00.004+08:00

I thought this was cute, with the sparklers && all. (:
2 more days to sitting somewhere secretly, with nothing to do nothing to lose.
&& this for the penguin !

more

I was just driving by
I would have said "hello"
But I'd come straight from work
Well, you know how it is
One of 'those' days

IS MEGA FAIL

2009-01-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

driving is mega fail.

" I felt like I was flying ! "

" YOU WENT 90km/h AT THE BEND ! I was clutching my seat so tight ! "

" You cannot turn into the slip road && not stopppppppppp......"

(paraphrased from the mom / dad / bro who were passengers. )

so is mega fail indeed. sigh.

Pre Fall 09: inspiration / excuse to not study.

2009-01-17T12:11:00.005+08:00

Armani's cut, silhouette, and blazers !

(how yummy is this, seriously !)

Balenciaga's palette & pants !

Matthew Williamson's clothes that I would stash in my closet && wear out in the light of day, everyday.

Proenza Schouler's belts, blazers & bags. && shiny shiny skirts for the sick days when patho reigns.

Vogue US February 09 : It's A Madcap World (Steven Meisel)

2009-01-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

I took a look at this as I was preparing to shut down the mac & turn in.
Don't they look so peaceful, especially Liya ?

more here

Am particularly frustrated with attempts to watch Grey's online. Can't find a single website, that doesn't require: membership / downloading of software which doesn't work on a mac / some new fangled software that only some people seem to have !

I am lion hear me whine.

Anyway, this song has been Favourite Song of the Week.
God of this City - Chris Tomlin.

Am at saturation point for patho, need to recharge & regroup & restudy.

light up, light up.

2009-01-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of studying pathology && looking at diseased colons.

POLADROID :)

2009-01-10T14:03:00.002+08:00

this is possibly the most awesome thing ever :)

In between Borrelia and Burgdorfei.

2009-01-02T15:56:00.003+08:00

I keep:
1. wishing for 5 Jan to come, so that a) Microb can finally be over, b) we can play for a short while (like 2 days maybe) and c) for CRAB.

2. cursing the answers of the T/F questions when they don't make sense.

3. trawling the WWW for clothes.

4. peering at Christian, who is sleeping now I believe. I fed it 2 flies yesterday, and was pleased at its alertness when it pounced on them immediately. Sadly enough, the same cannot be said for my enthusiasm for bacteria.

5. craving for steamboat & crab & sashimi & bunny's taiwan instant noodles at her house in the forest.

6. thinking right, what's the difference between hard ticks, soft ticks, rat fleas and body lice.

7. playing Pet Society on facebook ! HORRORS IS ME.

Paper Heart. AA-AR.

2008-12-30T13:44:00.001+08:00

a year has passed, the seasons go.

Irrational Fear 2

2008-12-30T13:42:00.001+08:00

That my pet spider, who I named Christian, will escape the tangles of its self made web, emerge from its scotchtaped home, and crawl on my flowerpod bed at night, rendering me helpless to its venom.

Ruffles and awesomeness.

2008-12-23T11:14:00.002+08:00

from here via stylebubble

Twilight, among other things.

2008-12-20T13:55:00.004+08:00

So then because I couldn't find anyone to go watch Twilight with me, I caught it by myself :)
And then, mmm I multitasked during the movie because it was so boring :(

This is why I much prefer books over movies, most of the time. Unless the casting / director / soundtrack / adaptation is really good, books >>> movies x 1000000.

And then, the only thing the movie did for me was, incite a desire to read all 4 books again! OH HELP ME NOW.

I think my love for Jawetz shall, and must triumph. Failing which, the results will be disasterousssssssss.

And my heart found a home again.

2008-12-20T13:03:00.005+08:00

Meet my christmas tree at home, without ornaments put on it yet. I really really love my christmas tree cos its super oldschool and nice. And it flakes silver tree like stalk leaves. ANYWAY the point is that yesterday we went christmas shopping! :)
We are trying to navigate our way from Outram Park MRT to Tan Boon Liat Towers. Twas a ardous journey, plus it started to drizzle along the way.

on finding the TBL towers, which was supposedly near some duck rice place:
TGN: "Where is that Duck Rice place you were talking about?"
(May Anne points to a bare patch of grass where the temporary food centre was) "There."
TGN:"Oh. So the ducks ate the weed and it became duckweed ahurhur"

We opened the doors to SKS (which incidentally has a No Solicting sign on it. Then I pointed it out to TGN, who was holding the door for me & who didn't see it & thought I was purposely making him hold the door longer & who went ' HURRY UP LAH. Think I hold door for you free one ah?' Kids these days.)
And then we saw this book, to which we cracked some joke that involved Abby and learning how to positively love the negative abby-s in your life. MMM.
So, we finally finished, with Siqi deciding on her first love Tozer book, Jansen spending 80 dollars of his 200 dollars budget, May Anne buying 2 books (and squealing when she met Lydia and her very cute brother. I just realised yesterday who James really is, omg.) and me with my books + cards.

It is good, it is good.
Spot the flash of red in the background, I'm not sure who it was, but someone thought it was KFC. Fact: it was actually Avis: car rental. :)
Right around this time Siqi and I decided to march along the road towards Great World City. And then Jansen joined in. And it was good, it was good. And I shall not upload said video :)
Then we decided we needed to sit down, so we brought the little kids to Toastbox. And ate very nice toast but the highlight was when TGN pointed to the towering mass of butter and said: 'How come here got ice-cream?'
HMMM.

And so we galloped down the slope to the bus stop after buying stuff at M&S, and headed to Jansen's house for BBQ.
We had the best chicken wings EVER. I am still drooling at the thought of the honey chicken wings. And hence I will have to run to shed the calories, especially in the light of the parties that are coming up! (insert random anxious thought about impending exams and lack of time to study. okay done.)
And then we invented the action of the year. Seriously, it is that funny. :)
And then we had the soundbite of the year, I think it emerged from TGN's lips.
And then we met Abby's and Charbao's version 1.3, who is just too cute. And her steth's blue!

I think I shall write my cards now, and send them out. Then err, try to study and go and run.
Man, I can't wait for the Ham and Turkey and Spaghetti later. :)

Oswald Chambers:

2008-12-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

Whenever we experience something difficult in our personal life, we are tempted to blame God. But we are the ones in the wrong, not God. Blaming God is evidence that we are refusing to let go of some disobedience somewhere in our lives. But as soon as we let go, everything becomes as clear as daylight to us. As long as we try to serve two masters, ourselves and God, there will be difficulties combined with doubt and confusion. Our attitude must be one of complete reliance on God. Once we get to that point, there is nothing easier than living the life of a saint. We encounter difficulties when we try to usurp the authority of the Holy Spirit for our own purposes.

God’s mark of approval, whenever you obey Him, is peace. He sends an immeasurable, deep peace; not a natural peace, "as the world gives," but the peace of Jesus. Whenever peace does not come, wait until it does, or seek to find out why it is not coming. If you are acting on your own impulse, or out of a sense of the heroic, to be seen by others, the peace of Jesus will not exhibit itself. This shows no unity with God or confidence in Him. The spirit of simplicity, clarity, and unity is born through the Holy Spirit, not through your decisions. God counters our self-willed decisions with an appeal for simplicity and unity.

My questions arise whenever I cease to obey. When I do obey God, problems come, not between me and God, but as a means to keep my mind examining with amazement the revealed truth of God. But any problem that comes between God and myself is the result of disobedience. Any problem that comes while I obey God (and there will be many), increases my overjoyed delight, because I know that my Father knows and cares, and I can watch and anticipate how He will unravel my problems.

Irrational Fear 1

2008-12-17T20:33:00.006+08:00

1. That a flying beetle flying around in my room will land on my head and nestle in my hair.

&& one of my favourite models, Coco Rocha has a blog !! and here's one of her videos with Behati.
THIS IS JUST TOO CUTE :D esp at 6-ish minutes. seriously :)

A clean room, with Robbins on the desk.

2008-12-16T20:51:00.003+08:00

My daddy showed me pictures of cakes, from Bakerzin. Hence, I am craving for Chocolate Amer (sp?)

Sometimes, I feel a need to scramble, to cover all bases, expecting myself to be just who every one else wants me to be. It's time to slow down, to regroup, to be intentional, and not just love in a frivolous manner.

got salt?

2008-12-15T22:28:00.004+08:00

its been great with you guys :)

Love, me.

Theatricals

2008-12-15T16:23:00.001+08:00

credits

Blessed be.

2008-12-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

I am reminded, again of the length, breadth and depth of Your forgiveness and love for me.
And I am humbled, humbled beyond words and beyond cognitive thought.
I was reminded, of so many things during this camp.
That the praying and seeking comes before the doing. And the loving and caring comes before the programs. That I have to be intentional about investing in relationships, I have to love.
I was reminded about how I have forgotten how to Love, and how I have forgotten how to care. And that I ask for Your & all of your forgiveness where I have erred, and not loved.
I am reminded how it is to Give, and how much it is that we receive in return. That much joy is experienced in the giving, and in the receiving. And of new wells, and treasures in jars of clay.
I am reminded that Your promise is sure, that my soul is secured, that Your love endures always. And that as surely as You give life to the earth, that You alone O God, can sustain me.
I am reminded that I am the salt and the light in the world. And of the unsaltiness, and dullness that have permeated my life. Yet, You give me hope, and steady my footsteps. So I ask that You burn away the chaff, and consume the dross and make me as pure gold.
I am reminded of the passion, the fire I once caught, that has reduced to a small ember, and I ask that You stoke the flame again.
I am reminded that I have been ashamed, that I have regretted. I thank You for making me into a new creation.
So let the redeemed of the Lord say so. Let them rise up. Let them hear the Lord's call and herald in His glory. I only want to be where You are, so show me. Lord, help me to integrate 2 halves into 1 whole. Help me even as I struggle, to rest in You, to know You in your power and your suffering, to be with You in the quiet, to be made whole and healed, to be the salt and the light for You.

Yen- Supernova

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On a book rampage

2008-12-08T18:15:00.001+08:00

After sunday lunch at Il Piccolo, we trooped to Bedok Community Library; where I swooped on 7 books.

2 Nora Roberts, 1 Terry Pratchett, 1 Barbara Bradford, 1 Tami Hoag, 2 Michael Cox.

Congratulations to me, nicely done.

Siqi's Russian Concubine is my the car's boot because she didn't want it to surface at her swimwear party.

This week's the 2nd week of the December holidays, and with my days filling up fast, it only means 1 thing: time to study!

I will be at got salt? camp tomorrow through saturday. :)

Ports 1961 S/S 07

2008-12-08T17:40:00.000+08:00

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